i did something funny/bad on thursday and friday
i'm afraid i gotta face the music on monday , might
mean things could change drastically. this will be my last
post on this blog.I dont like it when they read my blog.
not you guys, u guys are cool way cool. new url of course.

if given the choice i will do what i did on thursfri again
i'll do what i want, what i like. i'll try to pick my life up
i'll try to train my arse off like i did. i'll try to recover
from the past. i hope it goes uphill. if my life is boring i'll try
to create excitement , if i fall and they are not there i'll try to
pick myself up. if my back aches up on me i'll try to fight it.

i'll end this beautifully and start another enthusiastically
but for now let me find out why the past week was lived on
without a single reason

its better to have loved and failed then not loving at all.
to have something for someone, to wake up thinking abt
to sleep dreaming of . its BLISS.

another day another friday, how lovely.

i'll be pissing laughing and falling over the chair.

but its still boring
u get my drift?
its abfuckingsolutely boring.
and ive got sch in 30mins time.omf

Hallelujah-paramore.

life's a joke for toying

sailing season begins once more!.'

im still on a losing hand, lost almost 60bucks,
fed-up already, even my bro won 24$/
and that fella is buying a psp slim later.

omg its monday tmr this means agility/lactic.

digressing, sometimes i really give it my all
i stay sane, use my tactical sense in this being
and still end up being confused.

oky. this week is gonna be one harsh week on me.

5 thoughts

1. forgot how to sail?
2. cough
3. confused
4. confused
5. confused.

i've been partying heaps, yea i got bounced outta someones house
last night before i even got there. its a f-uped story but it ended
up with harvard and i getting cosy on the poolside chairs downstairs.

the last party of the season , 50 peeps coming over to my house for
lunch tmr 45 of them i wouldnt know who, 5 of them are cousins.
All i know is that i've got plenty of booze in my house, like 10% liquor
and 90% tiger beer, ive been on a losing hand in blackjack , time to
whip it all up and take it back tmro, fuggin 32bucks. Once i break even
i'll have enough money to go for a haircut and treat myself to a good meal.

will rocket load the pics up, no one was drunk.
dont worry we are well below the alcohol limit.
www.getyoursexyback.sg woohoo!



Soft kiss and wine what a pretty friend of mine
we're finally intertwined
nervous and shy for the moment we will come
alive tonight

dont waste that smile,
u look beautiful /

my bags are packed
i'm ready to go.
with my bike off i go.

tonight, is such a terrible feeling.

okay. solitude

lets not waste another day.

my current mood, not godma's la. mine.

i'm very tired, slept 10 hours in 3 days.
its 1.36am now and i'm not sleepy, i think its insomnia.
ive been left to thinking alot, since i dont have trng.
on thursday someone with great influence and someone whom
i look up to said to me '' they like 180, they love 180''.
i dont know abt this ,but i hope its going in the right direction.

Had dinner with chun and tzeting at marche', for some reason
ive been stepping into vivo daily since thurs. damn funny when she gave
me a lift to pasir ris, imagine her steering the wheel and scrolling through
songs in the ipod, had some doubts man. A 19yo driving camry is just cool.
ive got reunion dinner tmro, hope i win 21 points. Need some cashback

friday was good if not the best , days like these are hard to come by
and i'll give up anything just for it, will chase it will fight it. like a brave warrior.

lets not waste another day okay

i'd love a walk.




And you know
I'll storm
Through your castles doors
Cause you know that I'm good for you
And you're scared of what you'll find

A love you won't regret

Give me this
One last fighting chance
To crash the wall
I'll get to you
You are a war
Worth dying for
Tonight

;

now thinking back there were a few times i gave up,
i was scared of f;ing it up i didnt think i could make the break.

'' oh f i should've , could've , would've, might've ''.
i dont want to be saying this in 5months time.

i'll be there when the flow aint smooth
chase away stormy skies
share the bloody pain with u.

make shifts happen,

jimmy toddle back.
pictures taken before wedding dinner last sunday.
u see the older girl cheryl? she forced me ok.
a great weekend ahead, '' LAWL"" ?


I am standing in the ocean rain
Rough and ready
For your deadly game
I've got nowhere else to go

a lesson

last night mum got me thinking alot while walking home.
its not gonna be easy for me to make the call.
thats not what 17yos are suppose to do.

anw i slept for 14 hrs last night, still feeling very drowsy,
i had a really good dream though ; .

stine's results at 470 worlds;
1,15..

i'm falling in youknowwhat and i'm falling ill.
i have a bad throat a result of the regular macs.

i did a test just, threw whatever negativity at myself.
think i came out scoring with positivity. it doesnt matter
if u cant understand one shit im talking.
cause maybe someone else does?.

im gonna engineer a good week ahead.

all again for you

this week school was really boring especially in physics class.
gotta hand in chinese essay tmro im so dead.

awards night was so-so, didnt expect to win the best boy award
wait i dont actually know the name of the award. pictures coming up
so u fellas just stfu and wait ok. depends if i have time because
i got a wedding dinner to attend and i got 6mins.

Went to the mountain bike ''trial'' just now and got soaked in mud,
mum didnt allow me back in the house . fuggin funny. the ''trail''
was really rocky. Haah i fell and my right foot went ankle down
in the mud, that was super gross i tell yah!.

good feelin'.

fact of life

just so you know, i didnt say the above. caption
ssf use my face never ask, no pay somemore..

digressing, i love the weather in sg. the company
in school is great ,except for the work. and stine's
sailing well at sail melbourne. Roy is 30th and stine is 35th

gbr 16 sin 17

weird title but only a few will get it.

2007;

new zealand,germany,canada,holland,thailand.
has been really tiring switching from 420-29er
trying to put on weight and lost 5kgs in canada.
Did 27 fuckin' crazy races at 420 worlds in nz
and it was blowing 18-27knots, got introduced to
the 29er and 25-35min races in germany. Pumped
like a dog in holland and i can say that was the
hardest ive gone. The most difficult competition was
sea games, those arseholes were so light and fast.
Most unexpected win was aussie nationals, scariest
race was the last one in Canada, 29er. 27knots.

The competition i sailed with the most distraction
could be sea games, 29erworlds coming close. The best
part of 2007 sailing was winning all the 420 comps
7 of them last year. The most tiring month of physical
trng was sept. The highest my heartrate went was 206
on the bike, the highest average heart rate was 172
in a 22 min cycle. Okay this is getting so boring.

Had a social meltdown in mid november and couldnt
have fucked it up any better. and as i said ive achieved
all my goals that i set out so im not complaining,

2008;

sydney,holland,germany,denmark.

cold weather sailing strong winds 29er. need i say more?.
anyway the aust trip was really shitty, we had like shit
food everyday and i was suppose to pay for my own
GATORADE and BARS which i didnt, used the money to
buy cheesecake and cookies instead.

been splurging recently, need to sell some of my sailing stuff
to earn it back. might be involved in some hobie-420 sailing
this two weeks, will see how it goes. doubt school is gonna be fun.

checking in to hostel tmro night , this is when it all starts.

tim you just had to send me this pic right?

am gonna blog about 2007,2008 soon.
right now i'm too busy sorting things out.
so far all's good, feeling great this morning.
went for a haircut and gonna go shopping
for awards night stuff later.

i got three weekends off, fucking sensational.
and i had a Corona yesterday, in front of
andrew , uncle edwin and shu fen, bumped
into them at georges, was having supper.

might go down, who cares?

save me. ive decided

words wouldn't be enough to say.
i got everything i need.
but surely not everything i want.
im caught up in between , one's pulling and
another's........ where do i go from now?.

suddenly i dont feel like going back to sg anymore.
the stress and torment. i cant imagine in 2 weeks time.
they told me im thinking too much,
couldnt agree more eh.

29er nationals was alright, the best part was
that i got ZHIK vouchers and a mircofleece wetsuit
for free. now i got to do worlds. wtf my back is
breaking already. and DINNER is really bad here.
the temperature for today was 42 degrees.
life is extreme here. in short, its boringg too.

i fell short of something for 2007, achieved all
that i set out to do in sailing, academic wasnt
that great but wasnt too bad. so i guess 2007 was
fcuked. sensing now that 2008 is draggy as well
so there's absolutely nothing to look forward too.